Now that I'm in my 30s, climbing up the career ladder, holding a pretty high position and taking home a fair amount of $ each month, I'm asking myself .... "Is it all worth it?"
After 3 months into the new job, I can say with conviction, it is not.
I thought maybe it's me. Maybe I've not grown into the new role. Maybe my job scope is different now and I need to adjust. Maybe it's a new environment and I've not assimilated.
I'm feeling so much self doubt and anxiety. I work such long hours. And the worst thing about it is going home thoroughly exhausted but not being able to sleep cos my mind is still whirling from 14 hours of brain picking. So I end up with a lack of sleep but needing to start the next day with a run.
Being this high up in a corporation is new to me. So I spoke to a few friends. Friends who were older and had more experience in the rat race.
"Does it get any easier the higher up you go?" I asked them.
"No" was their immediate answer.
That doesn't help matters does it!
One friend suggested that I quit everything, move to an island and catch fish to feed myself. That's all well and good if i were white. But being Asian, that's just not in my blood.
Money is very important. But even I think you should not sell your soul for it.
"Is it worth it?" i asked a few other friends.
"No" was their immediate answer. Again.
So not only is it not worth it but it gets harder?
That's not nice at all.
So why do we do it? I don't know. All I know is that I go home and feel like crap everyday. I literally drag my feel through the door because I've that little energy left. The money in the bank at the end of the month is great tho. But is it all worth it?
Probably not.
No one ever said on their death bed, "I wished I spent more time in the office".
Again, then why do we do it? I'll go away and ponder about that now.
After 3 months into the new job, I can say with conviction, it is not.
I thought maybe it's me. Maybe I've not grown into the new role. Maybe my job scope is different now and I need to adjust. Maybe it's a new environment and I've not assimilated.
I'm feeling so much self doubt and anxiety. I work such long hours. And the worst thing about it is going home thoroughly exhausted but not being able to sleep cos my mind is still whirling from 14 hours of brain picking. So I end up with a lack of sleep but needing to start the next day with a run.
Being this high up in a corporation is new to me. So I spoke to a few friends. Friends who were older and had more experience in the rat race.
"Does it get any easier the higher up you go?" I asked them.
"No" was their immediate answer.
That doesn't help matters does it!
One friend suggested that I quit everything, move to an island and catch fish to feed myself. That's all well and good if i were white. But being Asian, that's just not in my blood.
Money is very important. But even I think you should not sell your soul for it.
"Is it worth it?" i asked a few other friends.
"No" was their immediate answer. Again.
So not only is it not worth it but it gets harder?
That's not nice at all.
So why do we do it? I don't know. All I know is that I go home and feel like crap everyday. I literally drag my feel through the door because I've that little energy left. The money in the bank at the end of the month is great tho. But is it all worth it?
Probably not.
No one ever said on their death bed, "I wished I spent more time in the office".
Again, then why do we do it? I'll go away and ponder about that now.
